"Costly grace is the treasure hidden in the field; for the sake of it a man’ will gladly go and self all that he has. It is the pearl of great price to buy which the merchant will sell all his goods. It is the kingly rule of Christ, for whose sake a man will pluck out the eye which causes him to stumble, it is the call of Jesus Christ at which the disciple leaves his nets and follows him.

Costly grace is the gospel which must be sought again and again and again, the gift which must be asked for, the door at which a man must knock. Such grace is costly because it calls us to follow, and it is grace because it calls us to follow Jesus Christ. It is costly because it costs a man his life, and it is grace because it gives a man the only true life. It is costly because it condemns sin, and grace because it justifies the sinner. Above all, it is costly because it cost God the life of his Son: “ye were bought at a price,” and what has cost God much cannot be cheap for us. Above all, it is grace because God did not reckon his Son too dear a price to pay for our life, but delivered him up for us. Costly grace is the Incarnation of God." - Bonhoeffer's The Cost of Dicipleship

I want to live more aware of how much is involved in grace. I have those enlightning moments where I am amaized at grace and how much was truly laid on the line for me and they fade away; I want to have those everyday without it fading. I am feeling such a heavy heart today because often when I read lately I have been left with more question and doubt than what I started with; however today I realized that my doubt and dissapointment I feel is so human and often in people not the Lord. I need to apolagize to myself today I let you down in a major way. I am sorry.

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